why?

there are times I can never understand why I can never let go. why after so long and so much I am still traumatised by what happened. who can help me to sort things out? I want to remove the anger and focus on the love. but sometimes when things happen, the anger just comes back. I know the past cannot be changed. I understand that you're helpless. just as I was once helpless. why can't I let it go? why?

the struggle

it seems like things aren't going too well for me these days. i have some major concerns recently. my work. my finances. my future home. well, work for me is always stressful. my finances needs to be more comfortable as there will be big cash outflows coming up. my future home is a joy to have even though it costs a bomb. in total, the above 3 factors can be resolved as long as i achieve stability in my career. i am writing this post to nobody but you, terence lee. things are not going to be easy. however difficult it is, be positive and never give up. perseverance will always come through. let's do this shit!

passion

i think i have been to harsh to you. my passion for work and money has blinded my love for you. i'm sorry my darling.

suffocation.

i feel breathless. the suffocation is immense. the atmosphere is tense. the figures are not coming. sigh.

stress management

sometimes the stress becomes overwhelming.

but nothing is impossible.

it is all in the mind, i will never give up.

because persistence is everything.

"The most essential factor is persistence - the determination never to allow your energy or enthusiasm to be dampened by the discouragement that must inevitably come."

in pain..

I feel sad just by looking at you lying there.
Things are so different today from what it was when we first met.
I am sorry my darling, for flaring up at you tonight.
You have nothing left here except for me, I really should be more patient and understanding.
I love you bb, and I didn't mean to hurt you tonight.
I hope that you can forgive me my princess.

a moment of weakness

a feeling of fatigue overcame me today.

something i have not felt in awhile.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

i will allow nothing to stop me.

because i am who i am.