Sad.

I wish i was more capable.
Able to perform better at work.
I'm so suffocated by everything.
Please give me some time to adjust to the changes.
There're just too many.

Why is it when I'm already really trying things still don't work?

Ok!

everything is now out in the open.
i've finally said what lots of people in office have been waiting for weeks to hear.

miraculously the response was rather positive!
=)
i guess i'm lucky..
now, let's take things slow and see where we go from there.

looking back..

looking back on alot of stuff, i've come to realise:

the love of my life was not true.
my buddy bud is almost non-existent.
my bff doesn't really take me seriously.

but i'm happy.
because today, i live for myself. and nobody else.
it's great to be selfish.

someone who used to mean alot to me taught me that.
so now i know why i was always upset in the past.

cheers to nobody but me!
=)

note: i've removed my tagboard. pointless.

Being satisfied.

i think i'm lucky, and i've more of that than alot of others.
i should be contented with being lucky..

sometimes i realise that the simple things in life actually drive me more.
behind the cap that i love, the drinks and the places that i frequent,
i actually crave something simple.

because that is what truly cheers me up!

Marching on the spot.

dinner at ichiban sushi on saturday night was great!
their cha soba beats sakae sushi's anyday man..
peewee finally had some decent food after being sick for so many days..

haha watched "hangover" after dinner with peewee and ah yap..
wow! the movie is damn spastic but i guess it's good entertainment..
just don't understand how ah yap can watch the same movie back to back..
lol.

anyway!!
those thoughts about taking the next step went to waste, cos i didn't!
i guess i'm just afraid of spoiling what we have now..
but even though i don't say it and you don't know
i am actually extremely happy to see you!
you cheer me up and it's just so refreshing.
thanks!