the balance of life

i remember a time when life was carefree..
i didn't have to worry about alot of things, including money..

but as my parents age and the thought of starting my own family draws nearer, i realise that life is no longer that simple..

i miss the old us, and more importantly i miss the old me..
when life was a beautiful picture and dreams were wonderful although further..

my thoughts

for so long i have been reading your posts on your blog, are you reading mine?
i actually hope you do because sometimes there are so many things that i don't know how i can explain to you.

a few days ago when you told me you wanted to go shopping on friday, i was looking forward to it too..
but i forgot to go for my course, which is what resulted in a delay in today's meeting..

when you told me that you would go shopping, i immediately assumed we won't have to go anymore, not because i don't want to, but because i feel that it's a big rush for us..

when i realised you would be late, i really felt that we didn't have much time for shopping anymore, so i was a bit reluctant about it, but you asked me why can't we just go for a walk even if we are not buying anything?

i was actually quite tired today after work my darling, worked hard for this whole week, quite drained and worn out already..

i love you bb, sometimes when i hurt you because of my stress or fatigue i feel very sad but i hope you can know that i didn't mean to, i just have alot of things on my mind that i find it hard to relax..

that's why i took a nap, to let my mind take a break..
that's why i wanted a movie, to let my mind escape for a while..

i am sorry about tonight dear.
love you, good night.